This is gonna be long… emotional… and wishful…
I’m gonna break down the five most important lessons I have learnt well in 2016:
#1: You are all you have in the end; It’s okay to cut people off along the way
It was the first year without my Best Friend. It is something I don’t like to speak of, all I wish was that I had more time but I didn’t. I have accepted everything about it. Also, I have come to terms that in the end, the only person who is gonna stick by my side is me, no matter what.
I have cut so many people out of my life simply because they don’t have to know that side of me. If I have stopped talking to you about things happening around me, it is not you, it is me.
Yes I am and the thing is I don’t owe you an explanation and things change, people change and I change. My trust issues are above the roof so moving on.
#2: Treasure every moment you have
With that being said, you never know when could be the last time you see your loved well and healthy. This year, both my parents were ill several times at the same time. I definitely had a chance to spend more time with them to help out with things around at home.
#3: Dare to be different
I know I always stand out because of my scarf, anywhere I go! I have questioned myself why can’t I be like the other girls… But of course, I now I know why I can’t and why should I change who I am to fit in. The biggest part of this is me drawing closer to God. I certainly dare to try new things even if I am afraid. *cough cough* My CCA.
#4 Love doesn’t destroy
This is the quote I am referring to. It is said by my baeee, Jace Herondale. (WHY isn’t he real???) I used to believe this was true but now I don’t even remotely think so. Love empowers a human being because for a moment, you think selflessly and that person is all you care about. How is that destruction?
This year, Love became my immunity, I started loving people a little more this year before that I was afraid of being loved. I didn’t want to be destroyed because I would think of myself as their weakness. #MunawhyyousodeepthatIcannotsee
#5 Love yourself more than anyone else first
I used to have low self-esteem about the way I look. Eventually, I had to slowly build my confidence around the year. There were times I didn’t believe I could do so much, like getting into a university. I still used to think I am fat and on my bad days, I still do. The thing is that I have finally accepted my appearance and covered up my insecurities with make-up just to build that up. Right now, with or without make-up, I think I am beautiful because I am God’s creation. Need a lift to your self-esteem? Here you go…
Now… Let’s roll some of the major events, I am not gonna elaborate much… cos pictures speak a thousand words.
In summary, 2016 was a bittersweet year for me, I had to say many goodbyes. Goodbye to my poly life, Novartis, T, F and my teenage years. I sprained my ankle thrice and learnt how to use crutches. I tried physiotherapy for the first time! I tried Nandos for the first time too. I went through other hardships that are hard to even talk about.
However, I had new things and better things to embrace like my University environment, friends and so on. This was the part of 2016 that somehow kept me going despite the hardships and the goodbyes.
With that I would like to share my hopes for 2017:
- To be selfish sometimes
- To be as happy as I can be
- To take everything with a pinch of salt (Quote my senior)
- To love people and not be afraid of it
- To continue being the fighter I am
- To never give up on my fitness dream
- To have stronger opinions of things
- To spend more time in reading
- To take care of myself
- To be more open to criticisms
What are you hopes for the new year?
With that, I wish everyone a Happy New Year for 2017!