Chicken Chop could have been the death of me…

Heyyy,

I have had this stashed in my drafts for about two months and last month, I decided I won’t do a post on this but still left it in my drafts. I have so many drafts that I am like what I am doing.

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Anyways, I did a lot of thinking and decided to do this post on that chicken chop that resulted in my food poisoning. I was gonna leave the restaurant’s name that I had it but I felt like it didn’t matter. I am not going to ruin their business so nope.

I was there on 6 March 2017 with a group of friends. I ordered chicken chop because I hadn’t had anything all day. I had to wait but I thought it was alright. I took pictures of the food and everything and started eating. I took a bite of a certain part of it and it felt odd like it was already spoiled.

I carried on eating and I was full. I couldn’t even drink water. When I got home, I was having the worst stomachache. I just lied on the floor because the pain was unbearable when I got up from my chair.

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Then when I could finally get up and I went out of my room, heading straight for the restroom. Guess what happened. SPLAT.Even before I got there, I just vomited all of the chicken

Even before I got there, I just vomited all of the chicken chop on the floor. That was really sucky and the same day, I vomited everything else that I had subsequently so I contacted the restaurant cos I was sure it was the food that was spoiled or contaminated.

Here goes…

 

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I remember being annoyed at how I had to ask for a follow-up

 

Then this…

 

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This is equivalent to calling me a liar but at the same time, admitting their mistakes? O.o

This is just part of the conversation but yup, I found myself blaming the restaurant the whole time. In my hindsight, I missed out that I could have played a part in my own food poisoning. Maybe the food was a little too oily so I should have had breakfast first and had a smaller meal.

The situation could have been completely avoided but it happened. It happened perhaps to teach me a lesson on gluttony. I ate the huge plate of chicken chop without ever thinking about the space in me for air or water….

Ever since then, I portion my meals better and eat smaller meals at more stipulated times. This reiterated the fact that just because you have a supply to food, you don’t always have to eat them all at one go.

Where is this post even going????

NOWHERE… okay, maybe somewhere

Ramadhan or also known as the month where Muslims fast is arriving in 5 days. Muslims fast as a commandment from God and this is where gluttony can be witnessed at the highest. This would be because they only have two meals, one in the morning and one at night. People tend to eat more than their needs which kind of defeats the purpose of fasting to feel the people who go through famine.

I have seen and have been guilty of gluttony since young during the time where my fast is broken (Iftar) but I now know why I shouldn’t be a glutton and I had learned it the hard way. So, just sharing my experience and hoping to reach people…

So that we all only eat what we need even during Ramadhan… I also hope that someday there’s no such thing as world hunger 😥

Alright, that’s all I have for today and I had no time to proofread so ignore my grammatical errors and lack of expression.

Muna

 

Rewatching PLL S1 + Theories

Hi,

Yes, you can say it… I’m crazy.

 

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How fitting is this GIF

 

I just finished re-watching Pretty Little Liars season 1, well known as PLL. I’m only re-watching cos I have nothing much to do. I really don’t want to start any new series, I am just too lazy for that. I kind of want to find out who Uber A/A.D. is. It is totally driving me insane not knowing. To make matters worse, Marlene I. King is like the worst executive producer, I AM NOT GETTING ANY ANSWERS SO FAR.

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Yes, that’s me in frustration of not knowing the new big bad. I felt like Marlene was lying to the whole PLL fandom the whole time. I think there was only one master A like the other A reveals doesn’t make any sense to me anymore. The reveals so far could have been pawns.

SPOILER ALERT if you haven’t caught up to 7×13!

Thoughts on season 1:

I can see that it is very simple and it kept me on my toes as I look for clues. I definitely got big clues from the first season despite Marlene saying the thing only starts in episode 6×11. I don’t believe that woman. Sorry, not sorry Marlene. I thought the first season was very sweet and it left me questioning. I must say that this is one of my favourite seasons as I don’t like the seasons after 4?

Let’s start with Mona:

I don’t believe she was A just because she was bullied by Alison, just doesn’t make sense.  Okay, let’s say she did and then losing Hanna was her reason to start again but nope, makes no sense as the A texts started before Hanna drifted from her. I am like 75% sure of it.

Furthermore, there would be this episode where Mona says, “I did everything you asked me to.” I also do not believe she was actually crazy in season 3? I felt like she was pretending the whole time? Even though she was seeing Anne Sullivan and all. I was not convinced.

Mona could have been the original A’s henchmen

Next Charlotte:

The reveal made no sense to me. She said Marion was pushed by Bethany off the building when she was a child??? But she was in the flashback where Toby and Alison were teenagers? Here’s the proof and thank you, immonkeyyo:

Furthermore, if she was a child when Marion was pushed off, wouldn’t Darren Wilden be 12 as well? How could he have been a cop who was in charge of the case when he was just a 12 year old? Makes no sense. Maybe she buried ‘her mum’, that is something I can believe.

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The reveal just never made sense to me. I couldn’t accept it, never will.  I just had to pen this down

This is the important part, my Uber A suspects:

#1 Mr Ezra Fitzgerald

He has been shady since the first season like omg, there was a point where Ezria could have broken up but it was convenient how there were three test answers found in Noel Kahn’s locker after he taunted Ezra the day before. Wow right?

And… Nothing bad ever happens to Aria from the start, A never sabotaged their relationship (Ezria). Meanwhile, Haleb, Paily and Spoby was constantly on the rocks. Also, who owns a limo? Ezra. Where did I see it? it was in the first season, omg. Then it reappears in the season 6B onwards. Isn’t this shady? Maybe it could be a different limo but they look the same to me?

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Then all the literature references in the A texts. Who loves literature? Ezra. Also did I mention about the lair that Ezra had for writing a book? Omg, who has three computer screens to write a book. What even. He is so lying.

He also appears at the odd timings of the show like in 4×13, he appeared at the end just to hand the phone to Aria? That’s sketchy.

#2 Lucas Gottesman

The new successful app developer? Smells like Uber A business to me. I don’t think that Ezra, the old man could have pulled off such an elaborate

13 Reasons Why: Love or Hate?

Hi,

This post is brought to you by… Netflix.

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Nope, Netflix isn’t paying me for this 😦 I was wondering what is the big deal with this show and I decided to watch it. I’ll be sharing my thoughts for each one of the episodes so…

SPOILER ALERT!

Episode 1 Afterthoughts:

Love: I like Clay Jensen, is that good enough? He’s a good character that keeps the story going? I like the narration of the story and it is honest.

Hate: I was honestly surprised that people sent tapes in the 21st century. I was just like huh? Okay, I also didn’t get how the new student, Hannah Baker, gets to be the Math assistant so that she can know Justin’s time table? Nope, don’t make no sense to me. Why do 16 year old sophmores have tattoos on them?!

Episode 2 Afterthoughts:

Love: Love it cos she finally had some friends. Okay, I could tell she is depressed and all but I felt like she just didn’t reach out for help at all throughout. The road to recovery in mental illness is basically acceptance, she basically in denial of it which is what most mental health patients go through.

Hate: Friends left her. Then she takes it out on Clay when she asked her about her insecurities? I think she meant special to him, not in a retarded sense. So, I felt she was being a little sensitive where she lashed out at Clay? THAT WAS NOT OKAY. (Maybe a little biased to Clay).

Episode 3 Afterthoughts:

Love: The story progression is really good, like I can totally see why she would feel to turn to suicide.

Hate: It’s super vulgar, really visual and Hannah could have gone to her parents? I mean her parents are not in the tape right?!

Episode 4 Afterthoughts:

Love: It addresses stalking too, I can relate ahahaha. I liked that she made friends with Courtney, although it was a short-lived friendship.

Hate: I don’t understand why Hannah’s mum blames everyone for what is on toilet cubicles? Some could have been done a long time ago and from what I remember, none of them labelled Hannah.

I felt that this show was promoting drinking? They are all 16 right?

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Also, Hannah isn’t the only victim, she practically dissed Tyler when he asked to hang out with her and he obviously released the photo >.> So, she ruined her own life? I don’t know, but she basically influenced everyone who got the tape to go to Tyler’s place. Aren’t you doing the same horrible thing that was done to you? Hannah, doesn’t that make equally bad? I don’t know.

Episode 5 Afterthoughts

Love: I keep saying this, I JUST LIKE THE PROGRESSION and the flashbacks are great and it is based on places as well. Love how Hannah was there for Jessica even though she was slapped by her. I also liked how Justin was protective over Jessica in present time.

Hate: I hated the ‘objectifying’ comment that Courtney made? I also hated how Clay’s mum was on the defence team of the lawsuit like HELLO, what’s there to defend when school was a contributing factor to her suicide.

Episode 6 Afterthoughts:

Love: Not even a reason.

Hate: I hated the violence at the start and imagine teenagers watching this and I’m also like why wasn’t anyone stopping Justin. WHY IS EVERYONE AFRAID TO STAND UP TO HIM .-.

……

……

And I was done with the show

I never watched another episode of it. And it is like, I wasn’t happy with anything anymore. I won’t lie that I actually felt the show was depressing to carry on watching. The whole drama was centred on a girl who went through everything? That includes molesting, bullying, rumours being spread, depression and so on.

I’m actually going to assume that Clay is on that tape because he didn’t protect her.

No Hannah, all I see is you being too trusting about the whole world, too nice to everyone. I believe that there is a good in every bad person and bad in every good person. All you focused on was the bad thing the person did to you but I’m sorry, people make mistakes, they do them unintentionally as per say.

Hannah, you took offence to what they said or did to you. Instead, you never once thought about how it could have been your fault for letting them treat you that way. I also think that you didn’t stand up for yourself while everything was going on, having studied your character in 6 episodes.

If someone were to spread rumours about me, I’d eventually find out and shut their face.

Rape being portrayed on the show? Not cool. It’s too visual and not something people would want to see. I don’t think it is ever easy if you get raped and oh, I freaking hate Bryce the first time I saw him. INSTANT HATE.

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You went to a guidance counsellor, sure but, I guess you were too depressed to even take what he said with a pinch of salt which is to move on. It has already happened, it’s not like there’s a time machine to make you go back and fix it. no.

Okay, I don’t know how getting raped feels like but I have been molested in my pre-teens. I’m not ashamed to say that out loud, it makes you feel… dirty like you are the one in the wrong, but you are not. I didn’t stand up for myself which is exactly what Hannah Baker did as well.

But right now, I’m living to tell it and I’m never gonna let that happen to me again. The show would have been more impactful if she actually got help and lived to tell the tale. Instead, it is a gruesome show that I can’t even watch….

This show to me only promotes:

NEGATIVITY

Negativity because the show actually portrayed how Hannah Baker took her life, in a bathtub by slashing her wrists I believe. This could actually influence people to do it, in that sense it can be impactful to teenagers with depression. Also addressing issues like bullying, showing how it is done can influence people to act on them.

Also, it is extremely graphic and research has shown that images have a more superior effect on us than words. This phenomenon is known as picture superior effect. The brain practically only takes 13 milliseconds to process an image. Therefore, these graphic images are bound to affect us in ways we can never imagine.

I’m not sure what’s the age rating for this, but I don’t think even I should be watching this. It should be M21 or something, I’m still 20 by the way. It’s too disturbing to watch, the swearing, the violence, the mature acts and cutting. I think no one should watch this for the matter of fact.

In conclusion, I can’t see how a graphic drama would make people reach out for help when they are depressed when the drama shows how to end their life. Suicide isn’t so simple as to reaching out, this series’ portrayal of depression is DEPRESSING to watch.

Why I can comment on this?

I went for a course on mental illnesses, I have a certificate to prove it too.

Suicide is never so simple as to be based on how people treat you especially if the party is depressed. Depression is due to the lack of dopamine (correct me if I am wrong). It is due to the lack of the chemical, not because of what people really say. Yes, words hurt but there aren’t the primary cause here. The show makes it seem so simple as though what people say are the cause of depression and suicide, people are born with that way and all it takes is a trigger.

To me sending tapes to the people who’ve hurt you after you’ve died seems to be sending a message that it’s ok if people hurt you just commit suicide and they’ll live in guilt forever.

THAT IS HYPOCRITICAL

All I’m saying is this show is vicious and not for human viewing.

For the record, I hate it if you haven’t caught on.

The End.

Signing off,

Muna

I remember…

I remember that girl who just didn’t do well for her exams when she was just 12…

I remember that girl who was hurt every time when someone compared her results to someone else’s… not because she was sensitive but some were really mean…

I remember that girl who vowed to go to a Junior College just to prove them wrong…

Subsequently, I remember that girl who didn’t want to take her ‘O’ levels but she did…in the end…

I remember that girl who wanted to drop out of her diploma in the second year because the pressure was too much…

I remember that girl who just couldn’t study for her last semester in polytechnic due to many reasons…

I remember that girl that who just didn’t want to go to a university…

I remember that girl who wanted to drop out so badly after the first semester in Uni but she didn’t…

There were many times I could have given up but I didn’t. I am not sure what made me go on. Was it because of my tenacity? Was it because of my passion? Was it because of the people around me?

After all, I could say it is the turn of events but I know it is not, it was my hard work. I worked my butt off to get to where I am.

Like I wish I didn’t have to breakdown sometimes just to see how far I have come and how much further I could probably go…

Dear Future me,

this will be your reminder to keep striving even when you can’t go on. Even when you break down, read this and I hope it get you back up again. Just like it did today just by typing all this when I felt like I couldn’t do it anymore.

Remember this too:

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I remember that girl, will you too?

Signing off,
Muna

Loyal Snapchat User to Anti Snapchat User 🤔

Hi,

The title may surprise you. I am not supposed to be blogging considering I have exams this Friday but this is something that is bugging me so much that I have to address it 😐

I am honestly sad to say that I am so done with Snapchat at the moment. It is just gonna sit at my phone but I am not gonna use it for reals. 

REALLY. Let me tell you what turned me against Snapchat.

Initially, I was rather annoyed with the new  (relatively) feature of Instagram: Insta Stories. 

I was honestly thought I was never gonna use insta stories because it was a “stolen” idea to me, no matter how you marketed it, Instagram. 

I don’t care if the copyright was bought or whatsoever, IT WAS A COPIED IDEA and I am not afraid to speak my mind. 

Cue to go all classic Saddie as this is my take on it:

PSA so yup


I still remember the email Instagram sent me to try Insta Stories, I was really displeased with it cos you might as well rebrand it as Snapchat 2.0.

So my life went on… Sometimes, I watched insta stories sometimes when I was really bored during a particular day.

 Then I was like heck, I wanted to know why so many people were using Insta Stories cos I open the app and see a whole list of stories. 

I tried it, guess what I actually liked it but I felt immensely guilty about it. Guilty because I felt like I was betraying Snapchat because the idea was an exact replica just different in some ways I guess.

I began using it for the next two days and the guilt consumed me and I quit for awhile…

Until… 

Snapchat decided to crash on me 👏🏼😒 Note the sarcasm.

I went back on Insta Stories. This is because it has become second nature to update on Snapchat and if that is taken from me, I now know that I have another platform. In reality, I just think I am addicted. Oops. 

Stop giving excuses, Muna.

Snapchat has been my most used social account after Twitter because I live tweet for Tanglin ✌🏼I was really disappointed when it kept crashing and I sent in a complaint using the report a problem on the Snapchat website.

Guess what?

No one got back to me. 

I gave them excuses the whole time because it is huge corporation so they probably have many complaints. 

Besides, I love Snapchat and I have been using it for over 3 years and I have like nearly 30k points so yuppppp. I gave them excuses for two good days.

 Then I came across this article on BuzzFeed and India Times (I cross checked), saying how Snapchat CEO won’t invest in countries like India which is poor.

That did it for me. 

Excuse you, CEO of Snapchat, you do realise that is such a HUGE hindsight on your part? 

I am not speaking as an Indian cos I am technically not really Indian. However, I think it wasn’t really nice to say that about a heavily populated country?

In India, I believe that there are two extreme ends in terms of living conditions. There are the high end multimillionaires and those living in slums. Of course, there are those who fall under middle class. 

Honestly, I’d be still living in a mansion if my family never left India and globalisation wasn’t prevalent. What if my family never left India? So, CEO, are you saying I’m too poor for Snapchat?

 I’m not exactly rich here in Singapore either. But between Singapore and India, I think you would pick Singapore which is a bad move in my opinion.

If you want to expand your business, I think India is great because of the following:

1) Low operating costs

2) Lower wage

3) Many Tech geeks, in fact, the one who developed Microsoft stuff is an INDIAN. Of course, he sold it to Bill Gates cos he owns it now .

I could go on and on about India. I honestly it is a great country though I don’t ever wanna go back there (personal preference). 

Why I am allowed to give my opinion on this: 

One of my modules made me look into economics of the world as I worked on my essay.

I used to be Super biased against India but somehow the module broadened my horizons on worldly issues.

That’s why I’m upset with the words of Snapchat’s CEO. 

Which is also why I’m going to refrain my usage of snapchat when I can. 


And that’s the story of how I dumped Snapchat and would probably start using Insta Stories.

PS: I didn’t proof read this and all the best to everyone who is having finals! HANG IN THERE!

Muna

My Biggest Fear is my strength

Hi,

Have you all got fears? I’m sure you do. While you go…

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But it is the truth, everyone does have their fears whether they realise its presence or not. Some are denial with it, some have chosen to accept it and move on with life. Meanwhile, some of them know of its presence and yet do nothing about it to fix it.

Well… I fall in between the second and the third category. It’s kinda sucky.

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Wanna know what’s my biggest fear? Love.

 

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My thoughts exactly, Love is like a cage to me, a nightmare.

Like anything to do with it. This is the truth, though, I’m afraid of loving the people near me and people loving me a lot. Don’t worry, I am not Philo phobic. This is only because I have lost a lot of people I loved over the past two decades. Each parting with my loved one has been indelibly etched into my mind. So a part of me is afraid of letting people know me, care for me and love me and then just disappearing out of my life.I know parting is inevitable but… it’s my fear, what you want me to do? 😦

I distanced myself from people a lot, kept many secrets.

Example: I told my bestie one of my biggest secrets and she was like what, how could you not tell me.

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Then there is this whole other issue of me learning to love myself again. This is long story: Love yourself FIRST (in case you haven’t read it)

This is exactly why I’m very cautious of what I share at times. I share only the happy aspects of my life to people. To those who are closer, you’ll get to know more. Frankly, even my besties only know 75% of my life.

Worst of all, I’m afraid of falling in love. This is true, my best friends can vouch for me.

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BUT YOU SHIP PEOPLE! You are lying, Muna!

Yes, I ship Hanna and Caleb so much but you know the love is only on screen and they are actually great friends in real life? SO THE CHEMISTRY ON SCREEN IS NOT REAL LOVE. PERIOD. yeah, I can separate dramas from real life, quite efficiently. This is why I ship stuff I guess, simply put.

Love may be my fear but how is it my strength as well?

#1 I don’t expect things from people

Well, for starters, I don’t really rely on people to look out or care for me. It is suffocating to me. Some of my relatives like to check up on me when something major happens and sometimes, I would lash out cos I know to me, it’s not a big deal but to them, it is. I can handle it because of the way I spent my childhood alright.

#2 Independence

This is very true because I started to believe that I’m the one who is gonna be there until the end of my life on Earth. This very thought has made me ‘build more walls’ as F would call it. I’m not going to rely on the people I love and care for to push me to live my life or get me to be happy.

The only person who can do that is me. But trust me, I do have my worst days still nevertheless and these days, I actually turn to people cos it is comforting at times.

#3 Self Love

This is a KEY factor because there’s a point in my life where I was just happy with being told how much I was loved, it was sufficient. Until reality hit me and the person was taken away from me by God. When that happened, my fear got worst and I didn’t love myself, I distanced myself. I didn’t feel loved or like I could love anyone anymore.

But you know distancing myself was the best I could do, it helped me find myself again, through all the weight loss shit and everything, I did find myself and I couldn’t love myself anymore than I do right now. If you look at my twitter feed in the last 1 year, never have I said I hated myself. So my fear helped me love myself again.

Oh the irony.

I feel that 3 reasons speak for themselves.

This is how my biggest fear of love has strengthened me as a person. But thanks to the people around me, I have acknowledged it and you keep me working at it and telling me it’s fine that I have this fear.

And a special shout out to those people: Am, Y and Z who are there for my freak outs on how much I care about some people or my crushes (I AM HUMAN, I do have crushes sometimes). I have like the biggest freak outs over such issues. THEY KNOW. ahaha.

Thank you for reading, sorry if I bored you and it wasn’t what you were expecting after a month of hiatus. I’ll see you all next month because I have my finals coming up 😦

Until then,

Muna xoxo

73 Questions with Munabanana?

Hi,

…. Sorry!…. I have been away for two weeks, school’s hectic but I do try to be here as frequent…

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No, for as long as I know.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Yesterday? But I can’t remember why, but probably over a book

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH?
Do I even have to answer this? FRIED CHICKEN, I AM MARRIED TO IT.

5. INSTAGRAM OR TWITTER?
Twitter.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes.

7. DO YOU BAKE?
Yes.

8. DO YOU LIKE FLYING?
Not really but I do love being abroad.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

Yes, not tried it for the record

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE BREAKFAST?
Grilled Cheese Sandwiches

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nopeeee…. Moving on…

12. DO YOU THINK YOU’RE STRONG?
Physically, yes. Mentally, yes.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
Cookies and Cream from Walls

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their eyes… Cos the eyes are the windows to their soul.

15. RED OR PINK?
Pink.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My thighs.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My best friend.

18. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ BECAUSE EVERYONE WAS READING IT?
The Hunger Games

19. WHAT FILM MADE YOU CRY THE MOST?
My Sister’s Keeper

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Grilled Cheese Sandwiches.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Tanglin!

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
Blue.

23. FAVOURITE SMELL?
My Perfume.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Can’t remember, phone is too far.

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Mountain Hideaway

26. FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Table Tennis?

27. HAIR COLOUR?
Brown and a little blonde.

28. EYE COLOUR?
Brown.

29. PUPPIES OR KITTENS?
Kittens.

30. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Donuts/ Fried Chicken.

31. SCARY FILM OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings.

32. LAST FILM YOU WATCHED?
Mean Girls I think.

33. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Me before you

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Kisses only cos I am not much of a hugger.

36. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Chocolate fondant.

37. FAVOURITE ROOM IN YOUR HOUSE?
My Room.

38. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN ON FACEBOOK?
Around seven years.

39. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COUNTRY TO VISIT?
London, but haven’t been there?

40. WHAT WAS THE LAST COUNTRY YOU VISITED?
Malaysia?

41. DO YOU HAVE A SIBLING?
Yes, an older brother.

42. FAVOURITE SOUND?
Taylor’s voice

43. ROLLING STONES OR THE BEATLES?
Beatles!

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
India

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Crying maybe?

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Singapore

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Singapore

48. FAVOURITE HITCHCOCK MOVIE?
-none-

49. WHAT BOOK HAVE YOU READ AGAIN AND AGAIN?
Never Enough.

50. FAVOURITE TV SERIES THAT’S ON NOW.
Tanglin.

51. DARK CHOCOLATE OR MILK CHOCOLATE?
Dark.

52. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE DRINK?
GREEN TEA

53. WHO IS YOUR GIRL CRUSH?
Emma Watson cos damn, she’s fine.

54. WHAT WAS THE FIRST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
Harry Potter (I think).

55. HEELS OR FLATS?
These days I wear more flats.

56. FAVOURITE BED TIME STORY?
Sleeping Beauty.

57. BATH OR SHOWER?
Bath

58. WHATS THE HARDEST THING ABOUT BEING A MUM?
Not applicable

59. FAVOURITE BAND?
We The Kings (Thanks to F, all his fault >.>) Run baby Run! ❤

60. FAVOURITE SOLO ARTIST?
Taylor Swift

61. TO BE OR NOT TO BE?
To be.

62. WHAT WOULD BE THE TITLE OF YOUR AUTOBIOGRAPHY?
Munabanana, a banana

63. BEST GIFT YOU’VE EVER RECEIVED?
My memories with F

64. BEST GIFT YOU’VE EVER GIVEN?
I don’t know

65. FAVOURITE FRUIT?
Durian

66. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST PET?
A gold fish.

67. FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
Cluedo.

68. HOW DO YOU HAVE YOUR COFFEE?
5 shots of espresso on rough days .

69. BEST INVENTION?
The Aircon.

70. DIAMONDS OR PEARLS?
Pearls.

71. BLOW DRY OR AIR DRY?
Air dry.

72. CHEAP OR EXPENSIVE SHAMPOO?
A mix of both.

73. HOW DIFFICULT WAS IT TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Not too difficult.

That’s all folks, not a very promising piece but I am preparing for my mid terms so I could use a break from blogging 😦

Muna xoxo

All about acne & acne scars…

Hi all,

Sorry, I went incognito for two weeks. Today, I’m gonna share my acne journey with you considering I suffered a lot from acne. I’m the right person to talk about this cos I probably tried every option out there. I used to have so many pimples. There was once I counted and there were about 36 pimples. Now, I am down to 4 tiny zits and many recovering scars…

It has reduced logarithmically!!!

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Today, I will be sharing about acne and how acne can be tackled with just a little effort daily 🙂

First, What is acne and what causes it?

I think everyone probably knows what acne is but I’m gonna ramble anyway.

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Acne or otherwise known as is a chronic skin condition that is caused by hair follicles clogged by either dirt, oil or dead skin cells. Here’s an illustration:

 

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From google 😛

 

The clogging causes the inflammation and it takes a longer time to heal because of that. The problem with acne is that it can not only affect your skin, it also affects your self-confidence.

Before everything, in 2013, I was fat and acne ridden. Well… I tried to find pictures but I hated myself to the extent that I deleted a lot of them 😗 And now I take pictures only with makeup on… so yea. This is the best I could find, no edits 😅

 

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Look at all the acne scars
This is a recent picture of me before I cleared almost everything so I have my tips for acne

*Try the tips at your own discretion cos what works for me may not work for you and vice-versa. I won’t take any liability if it doesn’t work for you.*

Ways to handle acne & scars:

Let me start off with home remedies that I used for at least 2 weeks:

HOME REMEDIES

#1: Sandalwood (acne)

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Directions: You just have to make it into a paste with rosewater and honey then apply directly to your face. Leave it on until it dries up.

My verdict: It definitely made acne smaller but that’s about it, sometimes, I felt like there was more acne from this. When I stopped, there was a drastic change, lesser pimples appeared.

#2: Green beans (acne and scars)

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Directions: Grind the beans into powder and add water to make into a paste. Apply and leave it on for 20 minutes.

My verdict: Not very useful, it left my skin dry many times and I have oily skin…

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#3: Potato (scars only)

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Directions: Just cut it into halves and apply the juice from the potato onto your skin. For better results, peel the skin of the potato, blend it and apply it to your face.

My verdict: I love potatoes, I only started using them for my face recently like two weeks ago cos I found out from my friend, Youtube about it. There is an enzyme in potatoes that acts as some sort of bleaching agent. I basically try to do it every day, I can see the scars disappearing which is amazing.

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Overall, home remedies don’t work well with me.  I had to see a dermatologist where I was given a couple of medications.

ORAL DRUGS

#1: Tetracycline (Doxycycline)

The pills look like this:

I had to take 2 pills twice a day because my acne was really bad. There were also terrible side effects like weight gain, severe gastric pain and also I used to get headaches. To make matters worse, it was expensive

My verdict: nope, I hated it because I was gaining weight 😂 Plus it’s effectiveness wore out after 6months so I had to switch drugs.

#2: Erythromycin

The pills I took looked like this two.

The ones on the right are extended release tablets so the effects are significantly slower. As for the ones on the left are immediate release tablets. Immediate release worked better for me, I am not sure why. This is because normally extended release tablets would be the ones that will be released slowly to the target site… -says the ex-pharmaceutical science student-

My verdict: This is the best after Accutane for me, I never had to try Accutane cos my condition was considered rather mild. There were many side effects that I had to put up with like diarrhoea and weight loss (terrible). I used it even when I didn’t have any pimples just to lose weight, I had a problem. This is the major drawback of this.

Overall, I only still use Erythromycin for controlling my pimples.

DAY CREAMS

#1: Clindamycin 

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This cream was good until there was more outbreak from it, I only used it briefly from 2013-2014. I had more angry marks D: So I had to stop

My verdict: Not only is this expensive ($25 and over I think), it was bad for my skin, my skin was always peeling so yup.

#2: Acne Clear cream

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 This cream is great and all but sometimes I find the clear too dark on my skin. I think I am gonna start using it again because it makes a good concealer to some extent. It is also relatively cheap, $11? I am not quite sure.

My Verdict: I loved this cream from 201-2016 until I met my new cream which is absolutely the best

#3: Garnier Pure Active cream

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This cream is simply amazing, I could see the results immediately when I applied. Sure, it stung when I first applied it but the thing is it really helped. My inflammation went down but a lot. I use a cotton bud to apply it cos I am just so conscious.

My verdict: My to-go cream on a daily basis, I apply it right after my primer so that it stays on hahaha. I also apply it after my foundation just to ensure it stays on. Then I set my foundation after that.

Overall, I guess I had to try 3 different creams to get to the right cream?

NIGHT CREAM

I only used two creams all my life , Differin and Tretinoin

#1: Differin

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This is the worst night cream ever for me. I would start breaking out even more which is a side effect of this cream. Imagine that I had this cream paired with clindamycin. Two words. ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE.

I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror when I broke out. So yeah, I WILL NEVER RECOMMEND THIS… I had to use this for the longest time though cos I tried tretinion was terrible on me with all the peeling from Clindamycin.

My Verdict: Never ever using this again.

#2: Tretinion cream 

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I use this now on alternate days with my potato treatment. Sometimes, I let them overlap. I am also not very consistent because I am like the worst person when it comes to adherence, HAHAHAHA. Since I was back on this, my scars have cleared up significantly which is 2 months. My derma told me my skin will regenerate soon in 9 months or so if I take good care of it. I am really hoping it would be fine so that I don’t have to use make-up.

My verdict: Best night cream ever though I had problems initially.

Overall, my night cream helps a lot though it causes breakouts sometimes but it gets better 🙂

That’s all for today. Busy life so I have to keep it short. This is amazing considering I typed 900 over words in 1.5 hours inclusive of the pictures. Catch you all next week!

Here’s this song that I keep listening to just cos…

Muna xoxo

Why Chemistry?

Hi,

This is gonna be super personal and I kinda feel like I need advice. I need advice cos I have been having doubts about what I’m majoring in. Every time, someone asks me about my major and they are just like “wow, so you are gonna be a chemist?” Well, not exactly.

The thing is…

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I don’t know anymore. It’s like my spark for Chemistry died somewhere along the way towards the end of 2015. I haven’t been the same since that year.

It’s not like I’m failing or doing super terribly in Chemistry. According to my high expectations, I am below it but that’s okay. I’m okay with it because I was adapting to a new environment and struggling with so many other issues.

Where did that passion for Chemistry go?

I don’t know.

Is it back now?

I think so.

When did it start? I do know.

It was when I was barely sixteen. I failed all my DPA applications to any business course in any of the polytechnics. By then, I knew I didn’t want to continue with the rigorous studying for A levels. I was never great with national exams or exams with bell curves of any sort, it just wasn’t for me.

One day, I was talking to my Chemistry teacher, she was saying how good Chemistry graduates get paid. After that, I went to do my research, at first I was interested in petrochemicals and oil but realised it is all organic chemistry which I hated back then.

As I further explored the various areas, I found Medicinal Chemistry which I specialised in Polytechnic. The topic interested me because I wanted to give back to the society. I wanted to be able to invent new drugs in order to cure many diseases such as cancer, heart diseases and so on… That’s because I wasn’t able to help my loved ones who had them when I was younger, sadly, they are not here anymore.

What I was left with was this burning desire to keep trying harder to ensure that my loved ones didn’t die in vain. Each death of my loved one was a fuel to that fire that kept me going. Finally, when I got into Poly, I was beyond overjoyed.

Then I got into my dream specialisation: Medicinal Chemistry Research and the road was tough and made it through so far. The question is: Is it ever gonna be enough?

I spoke with a wise friend who said, I have a purpose to work towards to. She said she wanted to see my name somewhere out in the world. Maybe someday, I will become that medicinal chemist that I want to be.

Not now but someday… My purpose is going to guide me back she said… And just like that I would pick Chemistry over and over again given the chance.

Signing off with newfound optimism,

Muna xoxo

“It’s complicated”

Hi you all,

First things first, ‘Ask Me’ is up again! 😀 Just don’t ask me why.

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This is a really serious post and I really hope it doesn’t offend anyone, I apologise in advance. And Hey, everyone’s entitled to their opinion. I have been crafting this for a month.

Let’s just get serious real quick.

Today I choose to answer one of the questions raised when my ‘Question Muna’ was actually up. This is the question that made want to take it down 😡

The question was: “What are your views on dating in Today’s society? ”

HAHAHAHA, I crafted the answer like a thousand times in my head yet it doesn’t feel right.

I can break my thoughts into one sentence.

I don’t believe in dating.

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Muna, do you know what century we are in? 21st Century and you are telling me you don’t believe in dating. I know lots of people who date and they work out in the end. I do agree that it works for some people.

Partially, it has been the way I have been brought up. Coming from my lineage, dating is just wrong in my parents’ eyes last time la. When I was 8, I still remember I told my mum that I was going to one of my guy friend’s house to return something la, she was like, “He’s not your boyfriend is he?” I said “Well he is a boy. Does that count?” cos I am dumb. Then my mum went, “You cannot have a boyfriend.”

I also didn’t know what that meant okay. I was really dumb last time or let’s call it naive. And that was 12 years ago…

My mum says I can tell if I ever like someone… Is she trying to be my girl pal now? (Note the tremendous change)

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With that said…

I also don’t believe that you can learn everything there is to your life partner or your soulmate just by going out together or even living together.

When you are dating, your other half would always want to put forth their best personality in front, it is a psychological thing. Like who would want to show their worst personalities to someone you are just dating right?

Furthermore, the idea of dating just petrifies me. And here’s why…

You open up to that someone and everything is smooth sailing… But what if one day, your partner decide to break up with you? Then you realise you have actually emotionally invested in this relationship, your emotions will be affected. Then you have to move on, and not both of you will move on at the same rate.

Someone will get hurt…

So, I don’t know by dating you are just gonna go through these repeat cycles maybe? I am not sure.

Eh Muna, what do you know… Have you even loved anyone before?

Once upon a time, I thought I did love someone, I thought so until some time ago. He was perfect in every way, looks and in terms of personality. But close to three years now, nah, it was infatuation. As long as the person seems perfect in your eyes…

No, IT AIN’T LOVE. Love is when you look beyond their imperfections and think, “wow, even though he/she is…. , I think he/she is perfect for me.”

I haven’t really felt that way before if I look back with a clear vision and I am not ashamed of it either.

Moving on…

To answer the question, in today’s society, there are social dating apps that I obviously don’t use. I am totally clueless about how they work. Then, of course, I have no comments about it. It just feels like chivalry is dead. If you like a girl, why would you just swipe right, bruh?

That’s all you gonna do? I feel that when you like someone, man up and tell them, right?

Technology is advanced but cmon like them tell them. Simple as that, maybe 5 years down the road, you are married with two kids? HAHAHA.

To all the single people out there who feel that they need to date to fit in… Nope, you are cool and here’s why.

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That’s all I wanna say about dating in this era. If I continue further, everyone’s gonna trash me.

 

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Nope, not gonna be Cady Heron today.

 

Side note: I just realised how I thought my senior was actually my cousin on Clash Royale and kept trying to challenge to friendly battle .-. #latenightconfessions

That’s all people! Byeeee!

Muna xoxo